Birthday Present from Heaven
This past week I celebrated my 30th Birthday. So far 30 is feeling great! In leading up to my birthday last week, I got an invitation to join the worship team for the weekend as they were going to introduce Storm Tossed ( the song I wrote) to the congregation in worship. I gladly accepted and it was such an amazing experience to lead out on the song. The song came from a very personal moment in my life and the Lord used it to heal my heart on many levels, so when I looked out and saw other people worshipping to it, it was quite a moment! God is so powerful and the fact that he can give us songs to communicate with is so amazing. As I was driving home from church after the last service, I just whispered- Thank you Father. What a sweet birthday present for me to sing my song this weekend.
Tuesday came and I woke up feeling under the weather. I could feel the dreaded thoughts swirl around me: You're 30.. like in a dark negative way. I ran out to run some errands and as I was in the car, I felt the urge to speak outloud against the darkness I was feeling. There was no need for the heaviness- I had so much to celebrate. The fact that God loved me enough to give Jane, my birth mom the love in her heart to give me up for adoption 30 years ago is mind blowing. The divine arrangement of me being blessed with my mom and dad and sister- amazing. There's no such thing as coincidence. "God is God and He is all powerful!" I said out loud to myself in the car. The fact that I won't see my parents and sister today on my birthday will not steal my joy! There will be a day when there will be no distance between us. There will be a day when we will be together forever in the presence of my Heavenly Father.... so this is temporal. You are Eternal I spoke out loud and something broke. There was a shift in the air.. I said is again - You are Eternal! As a declaration of truth. All of this is temporary in comparison to the plans you have for us. This ( looking out over the lovely port of Tacoma at the time) this is all going to melt away in Your Glory someday. I choose to celebrate my life today and. The older I get, the more I can look back and see His faithfulness in my life. His everlasting love for me. It's hard to wrap my heart around it at times.
Tuesday came and I woke up feeling under the weather. I could feel the dreaded thoughts swirl around me: You're 30.. like in a dark negative way. I ran out to run some errands and as I was in the car, I felt the urge to speak outloud against the darkness I was feeling. There was no need for the heaviness- I had so much to celebrate. The fact that God loved me enough to give Jane, my birth mom the love in her heart to give me up for adoption 30 years ago is mind blowing. The divine arrangement of me being blessed with my mom and dad and sister- amazing. There's no such thing as coincidence. "God is God and He is all powerful!" I said out loud to myself in the car. The fact that I won't see my parents and sister today on my birthday will not steal my joy! There will be a day when there will be no distance between us. There will be a day when we will be together forever in the presence of my Heavenly Father.... so this is temporal. You are Eternal I spoke out loud and something broke. There was a shift in the air.. I said is again - You are Eternal! As a declaration of truth. All of this is temporary in comparison to the plans you have for us. This ( looking out over the lovely port of Tacoma at the time) this is all going to melt away in Your Glory someday. I choose to celebrate my life today and. The older I get, the more I can look back and see His faithfulness in my life. His everlasting love for me. It's hard to wrap my heart around it at times.