Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Del Pozo Party of 5 !!! Our family is growing!

Trysha

September 28, 2010

Where to begin….. I feel like I need to make an attempt to document my day before this head of mine hits the pillow. I am so drained and exhausted but in a good way. It’s been such an emotionally charged day for us…. Such great news, but all the tears have brought me to a place where I am so ready for my bed and to get a good nights rest. But I don’t want to forget the details of today. What a day it’s been!

Woke up this morning and went about my daily routine. Then everything changed when I checked my voice messages and found a message from the foster care case worker at the state who cares for Trysha. She said that she had spoke with her supervisors and it was decided that based on our level of effort and interest, follow through, they were confident that we are the family best suited for Trysha. On Saturday, Trysha had her 10th birthday. At one point, she was upset because she wasn’t able to spend it with any of her biological family. She started to cry and said “All I want is a family”. There was a moment of opportunity for the case worker to share the news… a family has come forward with the intention of adoption for you. When she mentioned it was someone from camp ( Royal Family Kids Camp) she guessed us right away. She mentioned that “Rebecca is a singer and I sang with her you know”. She was overjoyed and got so excited about the idea. She said they could really love me”. I can’t imagine what she must have thought… or is thinking right now. My heart is beating fast just thinking about it. I can’t fathom being 10 years old and not have a home or family with unconditional love.

Looking back I can see how the Lord has been at work making a way for this to take place. Oscar and I prepared for camp – just like every other year… but what we didn’t know was unlike any other year in before, this summer a little girl was going to captivate us. It’s crazy because I have my own storiesand interactions with her and Oscar has completely different ones of his own. You don’t ever want to have favorites at camp, but who can deny that there are certain people you click with quicker than others and that’s what happened. Looking back, it’s almost like she was testing us… or interviewing us to see if we would be good parents for her. She was very inquisitive about my story and my family. Every year we go to camp to teach the kids how to pray and worship the Lord, but what if right in front of my very eyes, she was having faith being built up inside of her to ask and believe for parents who would love her. What if we are the answer to her prayers? On the talent show night, she sang You Never Let Go and ever since, it seems like everywhere I go, I hear that song. At the end of the evening, I sang over the kids. I had co-written a song “How much More”. How much more does He care for us. How much more does He love us. What an amazing Father we have who loves us beyond our own comprehension! His plans for us are good!

We had been talking about our family plan.. both feeling like maybe it would grow but not sure if I would get pregnant. Then camp came and everything changed. When we got back from camp, we found out that she has been switched homes again and would move on to another foster home. As we said goodbye, Trysha gave me a huge goodbye hug and squeezed me tight and looked up at me with her big brown eyes and said “I love you”. My heart melted and as she walked away, I remember thinking I can’t imagine not seeing her again. Later on, I realized I was really struggling to release the thoughts I was having about her. It was almost as if I was seeing her. I would turn around in the car and imagine here there with our kids. I dreamed of what it would be like to have her with us for Christmas. I cried to my mom– Trysha is deserving of unconditional love too. After talking it out with Oscar, I found out that he was feeling the same way about a particular camper as well… and it was Trysha! We felt a strong urge to find out if she was okay. Many children go home with family members or good foster home situations that will lead to permanent homes… but we needed to know she was okay. Through a series of attempts, we found out she was legally free and looking for a permanent family to love and care for her.

So our journey of the adoption process began. We completed our home study visits, references, autobiographies, medical tests, back ground checks, fingerprints and so on. We told our kids about the possibility and they were very open and receptive to the idea. The more we did, the more I wondered how she was and what it would be like to love her the way I was feeling I could. After an important meeting, it was as if I could feel my heart stretching. In order to have the ability to love another human being, I would need to surrender my heart to God and trust that He would give me the love in my heart Trysha along with the rest of my family. With each passing day, the anticipation grows and I can’t wait for her arrival.

The next step in the visitation process and there will be further evaluation and if everything moves ahead, a transition and move for Trysha to come home to be with us. I know there are good things ahead as well as challenges. We are confident that He will guide us and give us all that we need. We are so excited to see what the Lord is going to do! My heart is expectant beyond words right now!

So our family will gain its newest member soon- hopefully before Christmas because she would be an amazing Christmas gift to all of us. And besides, my mom already made the personalized Christmas stocking with Trysha’s name on it!!

God has amazing plans for us all. Lately it feels like Oscar and I made a choice to say YES to HIS plans in a deeper way and the blessings that come from obedience are incredible! They may seem crazy or sound irrational to some, but if the Lord is asking something of you, why not say yes and step out in faith and see what He has in store.

Thanks for all your support, prayers and encouragement. We will keep you posted and be sure to invite you to Trysha’s Welcome Home Party.

Love
Rebecca & Family