So I'm nesting... but I don't have a due date. I'm cleaning like never before, scrubbing the shower, cleaning the toilets, vacuuming the crevices of the entire house....Is it wrong of me? Tonight at church when Kristina prayed for the kids and asked if there were any expecting mothers, I wanted to raise my hand... but then I wouldn't want anyone to mistake this 5 year of pooch belly from Bella as the beginning signs of another baby....nope! My baby is a full grown 10 year little girl! I have been preparing her room, little by little piece by piece and it's so cool some of the finds I have gotten for her. I hesitate to do much more as I want it to be something we can do together and have her have a say in what her room will look like. Has she had a room of her own before? Has she had a say in the decor, wall hangings or curtain choices? Well- now she will. I walk by her room every day multiple times a day and talk about her with the Lord. I read Bella bedtime stories and think to myself.. there will be a day when Trysha is waiting for me to read her bedtime stories and then tuck her in. I cry just thinking about it. The girls and I will be able to do girl days together! The girls. I love the sound of that. I can't wait... we hope to start our visits as soon as next weekend. This week won't come and go quick enough for us. I can't wait to see her... hug her. Find out what she's been thinking, how she's feeling about every thing, get her measurements like Mary Poppins would -so I can finally go shopping and get stocked up with stuff. Ask her what her favorite color is, and if she has a bike? I can't wait. I can't wait! I can remember being pregnant with Bella and sitting in her room and talking to the Lord about her and getting ready for everything.. this feels very similar in a funny way. God, Your ways amaze me. I am in awe of all that You do in our lives. Please help me settle and not have such crazy nesting and give me the ability to enjoy every step along the way.