Today is one of those days... I choose to worship in the midst of the huge waves of emotion crashing over me. I put the music on..... and lay face down and pour out every thought that comes to mind. Not that He doesn't already know it, but it somehow helps to speak out the obvious. This hurts. Life without my Dad is so strange. It's a very weird thing. How do I move forward, when all I want is for time to stand still. Let me catch my breath before things just move on. How can we move on now that our lives are missing a huge piece. The one who has been a LARGE part of influencing me up until this point in my life- gone. I can't just pick up the phone to ask his opinion... he was such a good listener and always had something uplifting and encouraging to say. He always encouraged me to get God's perspective on things. He was always telling me to look up! Look up and keep your eyes focused on HIM he would say. The thought of never hearing his voice is so upsetting there are no words. Lord, I look to you. You are my hope. I know I will see Dad again, but eternity feels so far away from my today. I will try not to be overwhelmed but it's really tough right now. I choose to worship you- I know You are with me. I choose to trust You. I will sing to You a new song.